My mum left me down under alone two days ago, thursday. The airport was so small, ok not as small as Champaign-Urbana in Illinois, USA, but still pretty small, where you can see the airplane from the cafe window. So i actually said something about watching my mum go up the plane using the stairs as there are no extension tubes  where passengers can just walk through to get to the plane, without walking on the ground.
 
After taking two pictures with my mum, there was this last call for all passengers which is super early, it was like 1 hour before take-off, even more kiasu than Singapore, i thought.
 
Once i saw my mum turning her back away from me to go into customs and onto the ground to walk to the airplane, up the stairs and get into her seat, i started crying.
 
The tears just flowed, and as i think about it now, i'm starting to cry again. I cried and cried, used up all my tissue paper, cried on the bus home, cried throughout my lunch, cried after lunch, cried the whole afternoon, cried in the night, cried the whole day.
 
It was the longest time i've ever cried for someone that i really loved.
 
And trying not to miss my mum still takes a very long time.
 
The only other time that i will always cry is 
not when i talk to my school friends, church friends, outside friends on the phone,
but it's when i talk to my grandmother, she's so old, and i still have to leave her, this makes me feel so bad, and just hearing her childlike voice over the phone can just bring my whole world down, i'm gonna start crying again..
 
Please don't call me a crybaby/emotional/mental kid..!!!
 
It's just the sadness felt..
 
Oh and i'm using my friend's computer, he just left the room, hope that when he comes back, he doesn't see me crying haha..
 
gtg now.. May GOD bless each and everyone of you!!!