i don't like it when people let me down, especially friends. they have this project going on and they've asked me to be in it. after agreeing to it, they turned around and asked someone else to be in it too, when there can only be one person, and it is in these really small things that are so trivial that i get upset over it, because this shows that i can't trust them properly anymore. It is not in the big things that causes me to feel this way, it is in the small little things that they do that makes me feel this way, small but significant things. Oh well, why should i even be bothered by this? i guess i still can't get over you and i want to keep the friendships going, but it's gonna be really hard. God is really testing me in patience, faith and love.

i don't like it.