i finally get it!! i've finally figured it out!! i figured it out!! i know what i was suppose to learn for the whole of nine years!! and it's finally revealed to me!! oh my goodness!! i get it!! i get it!! i get it!!!

i figured that the reason why i'm not healed totally of my back problem is that i haven't been focusing on God, i haven't been turning to God FIRST whenever something about my back gets thrown at me... but now.. i know that i should have been doing that FIRST all my life!! i always tend to break down, go into despair, self-pity, insecurity, depression, everything before figuring that i need to turn to God for healing, for HELP, and God will deliver. i can imagine just how sad God can be over the past countless times that everytime He gives me a problem that He knows i can handle, i always make a mess out of it and myself and my feelings and emotions, that He will have to come and help get me out of it. but now i get it!! now i finally get it!! i figured it out!! that i have to turn to God FIRST, i have to focus on Him, i have to live my life according to His will, according to His desires, according to Him, Him, Him, then i'll get healed, or at least i know who holds my future, i know who is and will be always there for me!! i know them all!! i get it!! i get it!!!

ok... now.... best part... the lightbulb in my head just went "ding", and i get it when Pastor Brendan was talking about problems and troubles that we have to keep a postive attitude, don't despair, don't blame God.. etc... felt so blessed from his sermon... but dear steph, my goodness... her prayer was so powerful... !!! she prayed the night before that i'll figure it out.. and i did this morning during the sermon!! Praise the Lord!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen!!! my goodness!!! this is so cool, creepy and freaky all at the same time!!! and i was wondering whether if i should tell her because i never really talk to her about my spiritual life in detail,... and i was thinking.. what's there to lose anyway, so tell her lor... and she was so shocked and surprised coz her prayer came true!!! we had mutual edification, mutual blessings.. and quote from steph "when you honour God, He will honour you back!!!" yayyyyyy!!!!!!! anyway.. dear steph!! all the best for your test tomorrow!!! i pray that you will know the answers!!! and not get mental block or anything of that sort!!! bless you my dear sister-in-Christ!!!


i get it i get it i get it it's figured out it's figured out it's figured out it's figured out!!!

happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy

peace peace peace peace peace peace peace peace peace peace peace peace peace peace peace

hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah

amen amen amen amen amen amen amen amen amen amen amen amen amen amen amen

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i take back my previous post. sorrie.

Brisbane was good!! Oceania Convention was good!! had so much fun!!! rest first!! photos up later!! =)

i'm so sad.
i think i've gotta stop expecting anything to happen when there isn't anything there in the first place.
i shall live my life not wondering,
thinking or hoping about it.
i should just stop jumping into conclusions on these kinds of issues.
and just live my life with God and God alone.
so help me God,
to do this.
Amen.


listening to: White Houses by Vanessa Carlton