Happy 21st Birthday Kaishu!!!!!!
Have a very very blessed year!!!!

Hey, you!

Why are you such a bitch?! Why do you have to tell the whole wide world about it? and now the whole wide world knows. Unless you thought I've told the whole wide world about how much you've got for your grades. Well, I never told anyone, I kept my promise, and I didn't tell anyone, what you've got. Why didn't I want the world to know now? Same reason why you don't want anyone to know about your grades.I should have learned from last time not to trust you, but now i've learnt my lesson, and I know that I can't trust you anymore, you bitch! So, well, have a blessed year and see you around!

Song of the Moment


Turn The Page
Aaliyah


A special smile, a certain touch
I never had a love that I loved so much
When I look back, you're everywhere
Turn the page, you were there

My very best friend, my summer day
My only someone to depend on
When I've lost my way
You came and answered, my every prayer
Turn the page, you were there

What would I do, if some strange morning
I opened up my eyes to find you gone
I can't imagine how I would survive it
I finally got the reason to go on

My one sure thing, my solid ground
All I ever wanted, was the love that we found
When I look back, you're everywhere
Turn the page, you were there, yeah

What would I do , if some strange morning
I opened up my eyes to find you fone
I can't imagine how I would survive it
I can't imagine how I would go on

A special smile, a certain touch
I never had a love that I loved so much
When I look back, you're everywhere
Turn the page, you were there
You came and answered, my every prayer
Turn the page, you were there.

You Should Learn Spanish

For you, learning a language is about career advancement and communication. Knowing Spanish will bring you tons of possiblities for jobs and travel. Bárbaro!

What Language Should You Learn?

Smile
(Ton Sourire dans mon Couer)
sung by Janet Seidel


Smile though your heart is breaking,
smile even though it's aching.
When there are clouds in the sky,
you'll get by.
If you smile thru your tears and sorrow,
smile and maybe tomorrow,
you'll see the sun come shining through,
for you.


French part


Light up your face with gladness.
Hide every traits of sadness,
although a tear may be ever so near.
That's the time you must keep on trying,
smile.
What's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
if you'll just smile.

I've got this from Jur in an email some three years ago, and i'm reading through my past emails coz i'm bored. No, i was just kidding.



Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing, And your voice caught within your chest?
It isn't Love, it's Like.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right?
It isn't Love, it's Lust.

Are you proud, and eager to show them off?
It isn't Love, it's Luck.

Do you want them because you know they're there?
It isn't Love, it's Loneliness.

Are you there because it's what everyone wants?
It isn't Love, it's Loyalty.

Do you stay for their confessions of Love, because you don't want to hurt them?
It isn't Love, it's Pity.

Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand?
It isn't Love, it's being Unconfident.

Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat?
It isn't Love, it's Infatuation.

Do you pardon their faults because you care about them?
It isn't Love, it's Friendship.

Do you tell them every day they are the only one you think of?
It isn't Love, it's a Lie.

Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake?
It isn't Love, it's Charity.

Does your heart ache and break when they're sad?
Then it's Love.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret?
Then it's Love.

Do you accept their faults because they're a part of who they are?
Then it's Love.

Do you cry for their pain, even when they're strong?
Then it's Love.

Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
Then it's Love.

But do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and elation pulls you close and holds you?
Then it's Love.

Would you give them your heart, your life, your death?
Then it's Love.

Now, if Love is painful, and tortures us so, why do we Love?
Why is it all we search for in life?
This pain, this agony?
Why is it all we long for?
This torture, this powerful death of self?
Why?

Because it's...
Love

it's 2 am in the morning, and i'm overwhelmed with tears.. i've got a huge scar on my left knee due to a fall that i had outside where i stay last year, and until now, the scar has not gone away yet, i can't wear skirts anymore. Everyone will see my scar and pass judgements on me. i won't have perfect legs anymore.. they're long, but they're not scarless, maybe this is God's punishment for me to not have perfect legs. But, my life is so miserable, i've got no nice back, coz it's filled with surgical scars, no nice upper hips, coz there's another surgical scar there, no big boobs due to that back brace i've worn for the whole period of my puberty, and thus, last year, i had one thing to be proud of, which is my legs, but now that's gone too.. i probably only have my face.. so sad.. i know this is so superficial and so i don't know.. crazy.. but this is how i really feel about the scar on my knee. and maybe no guy will ever like me coz i'm too imperfect in appearance to be true. stop dreaming, amanda.