A really close friend of mine, or at least i think he's rather close told me that i'm a sarcastic person. One who likes to put others down somehow unconsicously or not. It could be jokingly or seriously. Not really serious, but somehow still hurts some people some time. and what he said was really true, and got me thinking. And now i don't even have the face to face them anymore, coz it's like i suddenly feel so ashamed of myself, like why am i so sarcastic?

And what really hit me was: he gave me a scenario of if i have kids in the future, even if my kids did really badly, will i encourage my kids by saying "oh, you did very well, and you'll definitely pass your exams." or will i comment on what my kids did, and discern if they really made an improvement or they were just plain lazy. I said, it depends on how much the kids improved, or whether the kids had improved or not.

He replied. "if it's him, he will always encourage, coz he'll find something good in it."

and now, come to think of it, it depends on if my kids did his best or not!

i have no way to answer that question, "why am i so sarcastic?" in my friend's eyes, i'm probably a bitch now.

:cry:

i know i posted this up before, but i guess i've got to do it again.


even when the darkest clouds are in the sky,
you mustnt cry and you mustnt sigh.
put God first in your life,
spread a little happiness as you go by.


i added a line in it.

Some people do things that they like.

Some people do things that they don't like but they are forced to because it is compulsory.

Some people do things that they don't like because they might not get good grades if they do something else.

As much as I want to, I can't do something that I like very much because it is hard to get good grades in it.

Besides, there is a technical problem, so technically it's okay for me not to regret it, but I'm still beginning to regret now. And, oh well, since it has been dropped, i shall focus on the doing things that i don't really like as much but I'll get good grades if I do it.

And, he talked to me today at my door.

:)