Everytime I step into the hospital, I will always come out feeling helpless. This time I came out with a thought in my mind, saying "don't panic", and just give everything to God and trust in Him. I hate eating medicine, but this time, i've gotta eat 6 a day for a month. I was tearing on the way out of the pharmacy, and I surrendered my life to Him, because everytime I came out, I realised how much I needed God, and that God is the only one who could help me now. So help me God, and do what You want to do in me, I give You my life, and my back. They're Yours. Love You. Amen.

Choir tonight was just simply very very good!! Maybe it was partly caused by the fact that i haven't sang for like three weeks! but today was the ultimate choir nights i ever had in this year so far!! We were just running through all the pieces, haydn had 6 movements i think, and mozart had 5 movements. and we were just going through all of it, and finally got a feel about how the songs actually go, and it's really good coz i loved it so much, and we didn't go into tiny details for every part, it was stressful for some parts like "in gloria dei patris" and the "amen"s and the "credo" movement no. 3 which had all the different latin words in it, which seriously takes up a lot of your concentration, and it helped me to take a lot of things off my mind, coz in that 2 and a half hours worth of non-stop singing, you only think about the next note coming along and wanting to come in on time, and trying to hear the other parts and yourself, and the pianist, and watching the conductor to know when to come in, and counting the beats. yes, singing is not as easy as you think it is.. haha. but it was good, and it was a good break from FA, and spanish and commlaw, and just plain good music fun. Loved it so much!!!

Best I Ever Had
by Vertical Horizon

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever had