So gay... this is all so gay..... the SIA pple must dislike us by now... but I am amazed at how patient and kind and nice and good-mannered that every single telephone operator who served me was. i mean given that this is Singapore... service is always not so good, but they were so good the SIA airline telephone operators... they tolerated my changing of flight times like 5 times, and that the check-in staff is willing to let me un-check in and check-in again for the next day.. due to my mom's incessant work demands. Especially tonight when i called them during NDP... i felt so bad for the telephone operator who is missing NDP and have to work on National Day just to help me change flight times, change reservation, cancel reservation and re check-in again. And i didn't know SIA was so flexible.. so kudos to all you SIA staff who answered my phone call quickly and did everything efficiently... thank you so much!! and thanks be to God for giving me such patient and nice telephone operators!! love You.!!!

you said you will try if i said yes, and now when i've said yes, you tell me you might not try. then why am i trying? this is so confusing. i have so much more to say. but i don't know how to say it. it's like after praying, thinking it through everything, talking to other more mature pple, i.e., shepherds, leaders, parents, pastors, and having sleepless nights trying to make a decision. and when i've made one, you tell me, i might try, i might not try, then why did i consult all those people for? why did i have to tell them everything? and being hurt over and over again. i'm currently in a very stone mode, and a hurt one too. so now i will go back to my God for rest and comfort, coz by grace i am saved to do good works to glorify Him.

really weird to end this post with a song, and i actually don't really liked it coz we sang it almost every sunday in HopeAdelaide, but i sang it today at Grace Church. so happy.


How Great Is Our God

The splendour of a King
Clothed in Majesty
Let all the earth rejoice
All the earth rejoice

He wraps Himself in light
And darkness tries to hide
And trembles at His voice
Trembles at His voice

How great is our God
sing with me
How great is our God
and all will sing
How great, how great is our God

Age to age He stands
And time is in His hands
Beginning and the end
Beginning and the end

The Godhead three in One
Father Spirit Son
The Lion and the Lamb
The Lion and the Lamb

How great is our God
sing with me
How great is our God
and all will see
How great, how great is our God

Name above all names
You are worthy of all praise
My heart will sing
How great is our God

Name above all names
You are worthy of all praise
My heart will sing
How great is our God

How great is our God
sing with me
How great is our God
and all will see
How great, how great is our God

How great is our God
sing wiht me
How great is our God
and all will see
How great, how great is our God.

Why are you so discouraging? you obviously still like her more than me! Why am I still here? Why am I not walking away? you always hang up the phone when you talk to her. you always jump at every opportunity to help her, but grumble at every opportunity to help me. Why am I so stupid? There's no point in holding on to you, when you keep on holding on to her. I should just let you go and find someone else who appreciates me much more than you. But why am I still holding on to you? This is so confusing.

In all my brokeness, tiredness, discouragement, sickness, sadness, hopelessness, unworthiness, sin, i forgot that


He's able, He's able,
i know He's able,
i know my Lord is able to carry me through.

He's able, He's able,
i know He's able,
i know my Lord is able to carry me through.

He heals the broken-hearted,
And sets the captives free.
He makes the lame to walk again,
And causes the blind to see!

He's able, He's able,
i know He's able,
i know my Lord is able to carry me through.